曾遭背叛的心...

真心的付出换来绝情的背叛，是何种感觉？？
悲伤得就像把盐撒在伤口上...
起初有种撕心裂肺的痛，到后来的麻木没感觉，犹如行尸走肉...
哼...那种感觉只有亲身感受过才会明白...

学走路的人总会跌倒...要学会爬起来才能走得更远啊...
如果觉得跌倒很痛而放弃，不再在站起来走的话，那要如何看到前面美好的风景呢？

感情也一样...
人往往被伤害过后就不敢再爱了...
那是因为他们害怕再遭受一次伤害，而把感情隐藏起来...

身同感受...
真的需要很大勇气才能再爱多一次...

卓文萱 一秒也好

我关上了门最后一次听你说我们
熟悉变陌生把我往记忆里扔
我应该习惯你离去的眼神
才能让失去你变的更完整
窗外的街灯还在努力掩饰着早晨
我的叹息成真了整夜的苦闷
我该努力习惯这样的气氛
才发现失去了爱不用再等
我知道我的一切你已不想要
即使在乎只会让你想逃
我不相信这全是种煎熬
原来你只是那么难预料
早已看穿没有我想要的好
我的等待换不到你拥抱
只好让回忆短暂的炫耀
原来任性对彼此都不好

清晨的街灯唤开了城市中的心门
我的等待成真了整夜的苦闷
我努力在你的回忆里狂奔
才了解失去了爱不用再等
我知道我的一切你已不想要
即使在乎只会让你想逃
我不相信这全是种煎熬
原来爱你是那么难预料
早已看穿没有我想要的好
我的等待换不到你拥抱
只好让回忆短暂的炫耀
原来任性对彼此都不好

多想再一次紧紧的拥抱
就算给我一秒也好
一秒可以给多少我都想要
我知道我的一切你已不想要
即使在乎只会让你想逃
我不相信这全是种煎熬
原来爱你是那么难预料
早已看穿没有我想要的好
我的等待换不到你拥抱
只好让回忆短暂的炫耀
原来任性对彼此都不好

让回忆继续反复炫耀
原来失去对彼此都不好

CheMistry, PsycHology & CaLculus..

just got my result yesterday..
i passed all my subjects except my critical thinking skills..
cts..what a stupid subject..messed me up..
i have to redo the subject again..
i plan to redo it on my fouth semester..
therefore, im taking my favourite chemistry, development to personal psychology and the most interesting calculus in my third semester..
i swear..im not gonna be lazy anymore..must study well this semester..
gambateh~~~

Merry Christmas Everybody~~

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We wish you a Merry Christmas..

We wish you a Merry Christmas..

We wish you a Merry Christmas..........and a Happy New Year~~~

Im here to wish all of you MERRY CHRISTMAS & HAPPY NEW YEAR..

Congrats to cousin brother for having his first baby girl..

It was on yesterday, our christmas eve..

The baby girl is very very cute too..

May god bless the baby girl..

ChaSe CraWford..He's hot ^^

A dAy befOre chrisTmas eVe..

i suppose to go out on the christmas eve..
due to some reason, we changed our plan to wednesday..
it's just a day before christmas eve..
we decided to go Neway to release our voice..
practically we going there to sing k..haha
that's what we do when we got no other place to go..
this time we got about 12 people going..
we probably will have a lots of fun..
I SWEAR..IF IM NOT HAVING FUN, I WOULDNT GO BACK HOME~~~
so now im planning what songs i going to sing on that day..
im also thinking where i wanna go on the christmas eve since i got nothing to do..

PS : i miss all my friends..nirai, jo, elo, carmeni, kaminie, zac, arun, vicky, roshaan, kah mun, and etc..i also miss pangkor and the friends there..kim, jonathan, tzong meng, ayie, junn, juan, rayyan, que, lili, mamu, kingsley,and etc..

Im LosT In bEtweEn bLacK aNd wHitE...

chinese people always say..
there is a blur area in between black and white..
between black and white?? it must be grey then..
this is what people think base on their colour sense..
i can tell you, you will never know what's in that blur area unless you go through it..
however, this is depends on how people sees it..
different people might have different view about it..
for me, it is still a blur area until now..
let's put this in relationship between human..
black and white represented yes or no..
whereas the blur area is 'i dont know'..
i dont know what to do, i dont know what i want, so and so..
now im lost in the blur area..
i dont know whether i will lost a friend..
i dont know what should i do to avoid this..
there's too many things that i dont know here..
maybe these are the reasons i always hurts people..

mY HoLidaY mY dReaM

my holiday mood suppose to be happy..

im not trying to do the emo things..

im letting all the stuff to wash away from my head..

i wish now i could take a bag, pack some clothes and disappear for few days..

***dream***

if i can do that, i will go to the place that filled with my memory..

maybe..there i can let go everything..

maybe..there i can think properly what i actually wanted for..

maybe..there i..

maybe..maybe..maybe..

**dream**

what am i doing now??

there are so many maybe and i trying to be emo again??

i just dont like myself to be like this..

***dream***

if i can disappear myself, i will go to my favourite place..

which is a beach..

it can be anywhere, as long as there is a beach..

i'll rent a challet at the seaside..

morning i will wake up only when the sun shines on me..

having breakfast at the balcony with beautiful seaview..

then take car ride along the beach..

having my lunch in a seaview restaurant..

i'll sit under a tree on the beach and read my novel..

after that i'll go swimming for while..

then take a nap..

evening, i'll take a walk on the beach with sunset..

having my dinner in a good environment restaurant..

last but not least, having a beer in the lounge/pub..

end my day with myself on the bed..

**dream**

this is the one that i really dream of..

for me it is a greatest enjoy in my life..

although im alone..

it shouldn't be a problem for me aite..^^

YoU'rE nO LonGer iN mY MinD =p

falling in love with you one year ago was a hard time for me..
when first you told me you love me, i was very happy..
coz i got that stupid feeling towards you also..
you started telling me how much you love me, care about me and so on..

until i get to knew that you're playing with my feeling..
the sweet words that you told had became a poison for me..
the love that you gave was like a knife scratching my heart..

i dont know how stupid i can be..
i just knew that i had no life at that moment..
i felt im so stupid..

but then now, at this moment, i knew i had let go everthing..
im happy that the b****** had gone..
im alive again.. *wink*

hEloo~~ I'm bAck ~~

just back from pangkor yesterday..
i really had fun..
i met lotz of friends..
all of them are nice..
i miss them so much now..
i will be continue writting the things that had happen in the next post..
photos will be on soon..see ya..

WiLL bE miSSinG neXt 4 dAys ^^

my camp started tomorrow..

im busy prepare my things now..

opps..

where's my sunglasses??

where's my cap??

where's my sunblock??

where's my swimsuit??

where's my sport shoes??

errrhh..gosh..screwing up everything for this moment..

anyway, hopefully gonna be very fun during the camp..

*wink*

iM wAitiNg fOr iT tO cOme ^o^

what am i waiting for??
yeah..whoo hoo..
its IPTS PANGKOR ADVENTURE..
its basically a kind of leadership camp, i think..
its in pangkor island..
and there are around 10 colleges taking part in this camp..
mmu, tarc, inti, and so on..
so we are leaving from help college on monday at 7.30am sharp..
the activities that might be carry out are ice-breaking, water sports (banana boat, jet ski and canoeing), junggle trekking, one day trip on pangkor, treasure hunt, bbq night and so on..
we will be staying in some resort (dont know what resort but hopefully its nice and comfortable)..
this camp take us four days three nights from 16th to 19th november..
therefore i will be missing these few days and probably wouldnt online..
as a conclusion (sounds like writting essay)..haha =)
i hope we will have fun in this camp..
and probably get to know more people (mostly hot and cute guys la..hee)..

i gonna go watch movie now..bye..see you all in next post..*wink*

爱一直存在

那天我扬起帆 想看看未知的海

心里很多话想说说不出来

虽然我脸上看不出来

天空一样蔚蓝却换了多少云彩

那时的你让我幸福百分百　 是否为我等待

我知道我的爱一直都会存在 没有你泪停不下来

你知道我依赖多不想say googbye 我痛说不出来

我知道我的爱一直都会存在 没有你快乐都停摆

某一天我期待和你笑的灿烂 回头看爱　都在

站在你的门外　我却幸福在徘徊

心里很多话想说说不出来

但我想你一定都明白 时间过的好快

时间过的好快想念却不曾更改

现在的你是否幸福百分百　我应该怎么猜

我知道我的爱一直都会存在 没有你泪停不下来

你知道我依赖多不想say googbye 我痛说不出来

我知道我的爱一直都会存在 没有你快乐都停摆

某一天我期待和你笑的灿烂 回头看爱　都在

我知道我的爱一直都会存在 没有你泪停不下来

你知道我依赖多不想say googbye 我痛说不出来

我知道我的爱一直都会存在 没有你快乐都停摆

某一天我期待和你笑的灿烂 回头看爱　都在

爱一直存在

NeW pHonE (CooL) , oLd pHonE (sTupiD)

huh~~
i just got my new phone yesterday..
its a fake apple iphone from china..
but i look exactly like the real one..
my friends kept on asking me how much does it cost..
and i told them it was 300+ us dollars..
but its actually 300+ ringgit malaysia..
ahahaahaha XD

on the same time..
my old phone started merajuk already..
first..battery low..
second..cant on the phone for few hours(dont know why)..
third..the phone cant read through the memory(swt..my photos are all inside there..cant even transfer to my lappie)..

what i worry now is that i dont know my new phone from china can last how long..
what if it die after few months??
but i think if it die is also a good thing right??
because i canget another new phone ma..
wakakakaka~~

TuK HafizuDDin a.k.a ApAi

19th October 2009 11.45pm

my good friend from NS is leaving m'sia..
he is going to mesir..
he going to study medic at there..
i felt so sorry coz i cant meet him in KLIA before he leave m'sia..
i got exam on the next day..
he going to study there for more or less than six years..

tuk..nek minta maaf sebab xlea antar tuk mlm ni..
walau bagaimanapun, nek doakan tuk dpt abizkan pelajaran tuk dgn berjaya..
nek harap tuk dpt idup dgn gembira kat sana..
jgn lupakan nek bila nk kahwin, tau? hee =p
bila ade masa lapang igt email nek..sama gak kalo ade masalah..
nek msty balas email tuk..
akhirnya, nek ucapkan selamat jalan..

hope we can meet back each other after few years..
im waititng for that moment..
by the time we should have finish our study..
he might be a doctor and i might be a something else..
he might had get married and had a few children..
no matter what, we still are good friend for each other..
that's what he told me and i will remember it forever~~
miss ya =)

NonseNse HapPenD iN cOlleGe =p

nonsense happened everywhere in college during this two week..

the first thing is HIDE AND SEEK..
can you imagine we played hide and seek in college's classroom without light??
you'll be walking in the dark searching your friends all..
very funny right?? but..
IT'S REALLY FUN DONK~~
haha XD

then the second thing is our normal activity..
CAMWHOARING~~
everywhere also we can snap photo as long as we are there..
in toilet, corridor, ali maju,...,even in the lift also we can snap photos..
hee =)

then the third thing is PLAYING PEPSI COLA at the corridor..
imagine there are so many people passing by but we still can play very nicely..
im actually quite phobia to this game as some accident had happened when i was a kid..
wakakaka ^o^

following is PRESENTATION..
critical thinking presentation and also human communication presentation..
i had seen some good presentation in this two week..
some of them are funny, and some of them are boring..
i had done my critical thinking presentation last week..
today suppose to be my human communication presentation..
unfortunately the class was cancel without knowing the reason..
huhu (wish to finish it faster but i couldn't)

and also many others small small thinging had happened..but i got no time to explain one by one so i just write down all those main thing as above..

there's photos coming~~

loves jo~

mie, carmeni, nirai & jo~~

me nerd??


THREE MONKEY ^^

monkey liying, monkey elo & monkey chris =.=

ugly faces

me(wtf), elo(wtf) & chris(peace) @.@

??

ladies man

im just playing~~


SOME OTHER PLACES

in the class =)

in the lift =p

excuse me, lesbian not allow in ali maju..

is there any naked photo in ali maju's menu??

PS : after all those happy moments, exam is just next to the corner.. have to start my revision then..wee =)

Finite Maths Quiz 18/20

i should have write my finite quiz faster..
but god knows i write very slow..
so sad..huhu =(
i got not enough time to draw the last graph on my paper..
the graph cost me 2marks..
all other questions are correct..
therefore i get 18 out of 20..

AruN toLd hiM *-*

yesterday i reached college about 9.15am..
while i walking towards our normal place which is the corridor, i met nirai and zachary..
they told me that HE was there with elo and arun..
so i was just smile and walked there..
when i reached there, i saw HE talking with arun and elo was smiling..
i stoped right beside HE and i heard they talking about a girl..

arun : you didn't realize her before??
HE : i didn't realize her before..now i realize her..
arun : *smiling* you don't want tackle her??
HE : *smiling and shaking the head*

they might be talking about some girl tho..
so i just walk to the other side and sat down beside elo (right in front of HE)..
then zachary and nirai came..
zachary trying to disturd carmeni so i tried to help her..
but zachary "warn" me with my SECRET..
so i thinked i better kept quiet because HE was there..
then zachary suddenly called HE's name and i get shocked (i tought zac want to burst my secret but zac just asked some other question)..
after that arun looked at zachary and said "i told him already"..
then zachary looked at me and gave me a wired smile..
i can sense something..

HE knew my secret~~~~~

how awkwardness it is..
i felt like killing myself on the spot..
how am i going to face him when i see him next time la~~~~~

arun you such a big mouth!!!!!

ps : my secret (i just said HE very cute =p hee)

VomiT blOOd~~

today morning was my bro's maths exam(PMR)..
so i taught him to do maths yesterday..
*unfortunately, whole doing maths*
before we start, i asked him what type of question that he dont know how to do..
guess what he say??


boy : drawing graph and geometric.....
me : okay, then we.....
boy : wait..others dont know how to do..
me : what?! you mean you only know to do graph and geometric??
boy : *nodding his head*
me : *roll my eyes big* what the hell!!? are you kidding me??
boy : *shaking his head*
me : errrggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhh~~~~~


what to do??
have to teach him also la..
teach as much as i can..
understand or not, depend on him..
at least i had completed my responsibility to teach him maths.. *wink*

tOdaY iS oUr mOviE dAy =P

again i wanna tell you all..
today is wednesday and wednesday is our movie day..
so again we went to our normal place after the first class as usual..

~mid valley~

elo, arun and carmeni went into nicholas's car..
where me and roshaan went into zachary's car..
then we met up outside the cinema..
and we decided to watch "The Gamer"..
we went makan-makan since we still got half an hour time..

after makan, zachary wanna go for smoking..
(started laa~hee~the forever smoker~)
roshaan following him..
and i got no choice but to follow them although i don't like the cigarette smell..
(the smell makes me faint~hate it~)
because i don't want jadi light bulb and i don't like to be also..

next we went to watched the movie..
roshaan sat right to me and zachary sat left to me..
kah mun called me while i watching the movie..
(i forgot that i promised to call her..im sry..)
the movie was not bad but just over violent..
(no wonder it's 18pl..haa~)

after movie we went to Brewball..
there we drank beer..
then boys was playing pool while we girls sitting down there do our usual thing..
(snaping photos)
when we about to left the place..
guess what??
i saw my friend's ex-bf..
damn it duh..i don't like him..

then we straight away went back to college..
actually we think of going somewhere else before we go back college..
but zachary worried that he will late to mr. joel's calculus class..
(nowadays he's too tension with his calculus..hehe~)
so we decided to go back to college since i got class also..

PS : today our class finished early..im so happy with it..whoo hoo~